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It’s 2004, I’m 24 and I’ve been around for quite a
while by now, searching the world for challenges, arts, beauty and expressions.
I see myself as a creative fetish
model, who likes to show off what turns me and others on. My wish,
since I can remember, has always been to be a glamorous, desirable model.
I remember my first photos at the age of 15, in the living room of my
mum’s apartment, on a carpet, trying to look sexy and delicious.
My girlfriend those days and me shot unbelievable many roles of ourselves,
posing in bikinis, jeans and whatever else we could find. I enjoyed it
so much, I always dreamed of being a glamour model.
I wanted boys to want me, desire me, fantasy
about me. With 16 or 17, I had gotten in contact with a few German amateur
photographers, following the Betty Page ideal of working for “photo
club photographers”.
I never stopped – till today. From the beginning on, I only had
the feeling of doing exactly what I wanted to do in life in front of a
camera. A little bit later I came up to shock everybody with my, from
today’s point of view, “rebellion phase” :
I got into the fetish and
BDSM scene, starting to work as a professional dominatrix. A lot of
people requested to know, how a young girl at the age of not even 18 years
old developed the idea of working as a pro dominatrix instead of going
to school. My answer is, that I have always been a person, who wanted
to explore freedom, or at least what I thought freedom might be, in every
way.
I wanted to know more about the world I have heard of, but never seen
up close. The world of fetishes and power, control and desire. The world,
in which people let go of themselves, open up and let you see the truest
of all faces – the naked one, without any facades. Obsessions and
their psychology aspects wouldn’t let me go anymore, I wanted to
know as much as I could.
My eyes have witnessed a lot of naked faces, my years have heard a lot
of stories, fascinating, unique, sometimes, or maybe often, sad. That
thrilled me over the time of 2 years. I enjoyed my work, it was the phase
in my life, in which I learned – learned for life...
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